I started this blog in January as a way vehicle to encourage me to sit down, wrestle with my thoughts on an issue, and synthesize many voices into an interesting narrative. I only got two posts done before the difficulties of TA’ing and research piled up & I abandoned my “take Sundays off” routine.
I was too uncomfortable with the idea of posting something “half assed”. I wanted all of my posts to be clever, insightful, and well-researched. If they couldn’t be that, then I didn’t want them to exist. And that’s exactly what I got.
Personally, I think that’s a real shame! I’ve grown so much in the last 8 months, and I wish I could’ve shared that in a more explicit way. My new resolution is to try to stop being such a perfectionist. I hope that I can overcome my fears of unfinished work so that I could share the thoughts I have while they’re still developing so that I can get more input for how to understand certain issues.
I hope that in the future, I will write more posts that are shorter & less polished. I guess we’ll see!